Thursday, May 22, 2008

Regrets!

There are many things I would have done different had I know any better...it has always been about hindsight 20-20...and I am being specific to my baby (ya in my life too...but that will be a whole another book not a post in a blog...).

I was going through some pics that we had taken of Sanjana in the last week of April while we were at our friends house and we had some other friends visiting...and everyone knew about the legendary frown on my daughter's face. Everyone made fun about how she never smiles or laughs and Girish and I cannot but agree to it...

Only a day later did we realize that was daughter was suffering from severe urinary tract infection for a whole week and also going through the "fifth disease" (ya there is a disease called this)...We did not know about either until the following Monday. Looking at those photos I regret that I was also making fun of how Sanjana never smiles...well how can she?

From the time she was three and half months old she had 6 ear infection, has been on antibiotics constantly and till date has had 8 antibiotics, steroids and a minor surgery...more than what I have taken my entire life...I never took her out of the house for two months and she was scared of strangers...now how could I realistically expect her to be in the "yo wassup" mood?

She is still not used to strangers and her giggles and laughter are a pleasure which she reveals only to her mom and dad...but had I known that she was sick and had been sick for an entire week I probably would have taken her to the doctor...she could not speak and I misunderstood her cries to be hunger and not pain...I did not know any better...and those photos make me regret for doing what I did and wondering why is my daughter cranky...

Yes I deeply regret it and sorry Sanjana...I will try to watch out more for you.

Love
Mom

Peeves! Peeves and Peeves Galore!

I have to realize a few things...well I think I have realized it and that is exactly the point of this post...

Point 1: I cannot change the world...now you wonder why I want to change the world...of course because it does not suit my style...isn't that the reason everyone wants to change it? I have learnt many times in my life that it ain't happening but I ain't given up trying...The first thing I would do when I change it would be to make 2 day weeks and 5 day weekends...any takers??!!!

Point 2: I should stop worrying about something when I realize that I cannot change what is going to happen...but do I? No...It sits like a bug in my brain until I get it out...but off late I have started to control this urge...

Point 3: I cannot afford to make the same mistake twice...now wouldn't it be nice if life had a DVR machine and you can go back and change a few things and make sure you don't add the few extra pounds right from your teens? Well well well...we all want that...but ain't gonna happen...

So many points to write but only a few worth penning out in public...the rest are the people who see me vis a vis...

Love
ART

Friday, May 02, 2008

Random Thoughts

Don't you agree that everyone have their pet peeves and always wish that the world was more suited to their needs so such peeves don't exist? Well I am definitely one of those...I feel like complaining about a lot of things that happen around me and which according to me are either not correct or could be bettered...

But the good thing about me is that I don't complain/bitch/moan about it to anyone other than my husband or maybe some close friends...

Which, my friends, can also be the bad thing...because if you do not complain then how are these people who annoy you or things that annoy you get sorted out? That is where I am...

Anyhoo...the other day I was watching some desi program on IATV, and there were these rappers, obviously Indians carrying fake rapper names and dressing up like African Americans, talking like them, behaving like them, showing gangster signs like them, and basically trying to ape them in every possible shallow way...

Dumbasses don't know that they look like idiots, ya seriously, don't you have any pride at all? Can't you be any original? African Americans after many many years have developed their identity. It is something that is a part of them that we cannot just ape and think it is cool. Why can't we develop our identity? Of the turbans and sarees and kurtas and salwars? Why can't we funk it up with them? Why should we try to embrace another fashion when we have our very own?

These people just annoy the crap out of me and easily irritate me...

Then there are these bloggers...a few of them think that they are gods gift to mankind and have a put on attitude and go about dissing everything and everyone including their parents...annoys me to no end...there are some people in my real life who think like too...at least the ones online I can ignore...how can I do the same with the ones that are right in your face?!!! Anyways such is life...

But then all quirks/peeves come to an end somehow or someway...and I always hope that I don't have to do much about them and can peacefully ignore them until they go away...

More to follow...